A permanent change of perception beyond the frameworks of the human mind is earned.
The most beautiful side effects of an expanded perception outside the confines of the mind is that (former)relationships we have had are now seen in a completely new light as well. Maybe for the first time ever. Any charges and attachments we have felt when thinking of past partners simply go 'poof' as we shift internally. You and everyone involved is set free.
Welcome to REALNESS.
When writing the letter below to my former partner, for the first time I felt no emotional charge or inhibition in my expression and I realized how walking myself through my internal landscape all this time has really changed EVERYTHING in the NOW.
We can all do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We ARE all doing this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In our own way and in our own timing!!!!!
I just want you to know that you have been on my mind lately :) I want you to know that I deeply respect you and everything you did for us and the work you continue to do. Also, I want you to know that I am sorry if I ever hurt you with my actions and behaviour.......it was my own anger and you are incredible and you never did anything wrong."
thank you for your words. I respect them very much.
Just know that YOU didn't do anything wrong, either.
I have come to understand that we had merely given full control to the protection patterns we had created within our minds to protect us from ever getting hurt again. Which is VERY understandable. Because make no mistake about it, this entire incarnation had more or less been painful and fact is that we simply had to make sure we survived in the mal-functioning societal system as sensitive individuals and that's why we created them. It is very human.
So the anger, victim mentality, the entire array of our patterns and reactions, etc. had served us well and had their place.
It's just that our protection patterns ensured that we wouldn't experience true intimacy and a fulfilled sustainable connection with each other. I, for example, wasn't able to FEEL. However, I thought I was because I had all these emotions going on. But emotions are not really a state of FEELING but I didn't quite see the difference back then.
Now I know that they are merely a response to a comment, situation, etc. in which we are faced with something that reminds us of an unconscious or conscious painful past experience. But they are not of truth. Just part of an illusion. When we say I love you, for example, it often comes drenched in worry or fear, e.g. I love you (because I am worried about you, or because I need you because I feel incomplete without you). So in that sense I love you is not FEELING but comes with emotional strings attached. And I know that we went into the protection pattern mode after we so deeply felt each other during the time we first connected. It was just too scary to let go into that at the time. So our mind took over to keep us 'safe'...the anger, the victim mentality, the ambiguity, the fear of transparency and so much more.
I feel we were just a slave to our patterns and emotions and within that things got off balance and re-establishing balance was impossible because the mind-modified nature of the pattern-emotions matrix is limited in nature and does not allow for balance.
Ultimately, I had no idea how little I valued and thought of myself and how really I was the only one I was continuously criticising and complaining about. I never understood how much we chastised ourselves.
We just fed off each others patterns. And that is very much okay. And I am aware of the overall energetic climate on the planet at that time that wouldn't allow us to put down our swords because protection was still needed. And it served so many purposes, didn't it?
And I know, a life time is like the blink of an eye in the astrals and believe it or not, we will laugh at how well we played in the illusion.
And we will laugh at how we bought into it all...into the mind-modified world of our patterns that seemed so damn real. And looking at our earthly lives I will laugh and say to you YOU DID WELL *wink* 'look at how great you did pushing me to dig as deep as I never would have if it weren't for you. And maybe you will laugh and say a similar thing to me.
In truth we didn't do anything to each other really but to ourselves.
So when I think of you the view that dominates is that you didn't do anything to me. Patterns 'do' something to others. But YOU (to me) are not your patterns. To me you are a soul. And we humans on the planet are just on the brink of beginning to experience the vastness of who we are as souls as we transcend our patterns. And as we see more of ourselves, we see more of the others.
Know, that the human in me very much appreciates your words. And I thank you."